After many years of denial, struggle, anger & depression I have, in my middle age, finally began to come out w/ my bisexuality. I am a life-long United Methodist (although I have left & come back many times). When I was 13, getting crushes on boys & girls, I didn't understand, I had no one to talk to, I didn't trust anyone. I just knew that "homosexuals" were "freaks" in San Francisco, and that boys were ONLY supposed to like girls. I so wanted, NEEDED, to talk to my pastor. I was afraid & lonely. I've been lonely for far too long now.
Coming out is a wonderful, exhilarating, scary experience. It is very hard to explain to people my affections, desires, and dreams of/for/about both men & women. Thankfully I have many supportive friends: gay, bi, & straight. My church is open & welcoming to LGBT people, but I needed to accept myself. So I told our associate pastor. Not only was she welcoming, affirming, and supportive but she was HAPPY that I came out! She just totally blew me away! I just said "thank you God!" Because I finally got the pastoral conversation I've always wanted! She said it was perfectly fine w/ her if I dated men and/or women in the church as long as I was honest, safe, secure, & treated people w/ love & respect. Jesus said we should love the Lord our God with all of our heart & mind, and we should love others as we love ourselves. Yet we can not enter into true love w/ our God, much less our neighbors, until we love ourselves. Because, despite what a lot of bad theology, misguided pastors & churches say, God DOES love me as a bisexual man & God DOES love ALL LGBT people! Amen!
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